Today after a long time I’ve started to paint again. Promised myself it wouldn’t have to be pretty or perfect, as long as I’m painting. Keep busy little hands! The picture I took is horrible though >.> I need a proper camera.
Filed under: Artistic
*jumps up and down* Whieee more pineapples! A nice pick-me-up after a day of sleeping and snoozing. Had a good night though, WIN.
Filed under: Emo Cat
Just as the title states, just one chocolate left. It might get eaten tonight. (I’m not a food addict >.>) Rob brought me a nice surprise though, two huge pineapples omnom. I’m a tad allergic to them but they are too good to be true…
Couldn’t fall asleep at all last night, thoughts kept running round little circles in my head. Must have been at least an hour or two before I could sleep, finally managed to get some happy fuzzy thoughts which made me fall asleep in the end. Had an okay night without any nasty dreams so when I woke up in at 10.30 the morning I felt alright. Having nasty dreams can really make me feel crap all day long. Had another three hour nap in the afternoon, my big kitty Paddy decided to nap along in my arms. Still haven’t found the courage to call my mother :p
Last night I farmed the WoW Jeeves schematic, it only took like 3 hours for the bloody thing to drop. But I was quite happy when it did eventually. Then ofcourse I had to gather all the ruddy materials which was a whole task on it’s own.
Filed under: Emo Cat
Eeps the weather outside is as stormy as my emotions inside. Had a good cry cuddling against Rob on friday night, in between of a Harry Potter movie. Anything can set me off sniffling in tears at the moment. Had a talk as well with him whats been bothering me lately. Its the same old shit ofcourse that always comes up >.> It’s stupid how things from the past can still haunt you after all these years, I have a nice life now, cuddly cats and comfy house but still my minds wanders back. Lying awake for hours trying to stop my mind spilling over with thoughts and emotions. Go paint frustrated kitten! Psych told me that doing things with your hands, being busy helps to work through emotions.
I should not sleep that much but I have no energy what so ever to do anything. I try to make a nommy meal for Rob when he comes home from work, least I can do. Dreaming frustrates me enormously, its lovely to dream but not if all kinds of issues surface in them.
Reallly should call my mother, haven’t spoken with her for a month now and I’m really dreading it. I’m afraid of getting manic depressive psychotic talk from her and swearing. The longer I dont phone her to find out hows she is doing, how more stressed and scared I get that she is becoming sick again. Dreaming about her running after me, cutting herself in her arms to get some attention from me doesn’t help either! Rob always tells me that it’s okay if I wake him up at night a lil to get some cuddles and comfort. But I rather not do that, he gets up so bloody early for work. He needs his sleep too :p though tonight I sneaked in under his arms after not being able to get to sleep again.
This morning when we were out for our groceries I treated myself on some nice chocolate bonbons… mm rich dark chocolate I really should not have because I’m still trying to keep the diet going :p . I guess once in a while shouldnt be so bad if I can keep myself in good order during the week. Mmmm rich dark chocolates…. *grabs the bag – hides under pillows and duvet – growls if Rob tries to steal a few*
Filed under: Emo Cat
So yarr, I have been a happy kitten for two days now. At the Midsummer Festival in the Dutch themepark Archeon, there was a lady that sold me the Konad B set and some image plates. When I googled the set later it seemed she was quite overpriced. But oh well…
I’m really enjoying my new nails i got on saturday. They are acrylic and just lovely. I never could grow and manicure my nails myself, they have always been too thin / flexible / breakable to really unleash my inner-nail-prettyness.
Filed under: Nailart
